Tessisamess

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On a more personal note

Hey, guys! So, this is more of a personal kind of update, and I don't usually do those on here (or anywhere on IJ, really. I always mean to keep a personal journal and then wind up sticking to one on one Discord conversations, haha.)

I just wanted to take a minute and tell you all again—and I know I say this a lot, but bear with me—how very, very much I appreciate you all as a community. Your various forms of supporting my work through continued comments, messages, patronage, and tips have really made this that: My work.

What started as a hobby while dealing with postpartum almost nine years ago now has grown into a deep passion for me. Creating resources, teaching, and fielding questions has become a huge part of my life; something I can't imagine ever not doing.

I know, I know. What's so personal about all that? I say most of it all the time!

Well, a couple of weeks ago I went in for my yearly with my OB-GYN and he found a pretty okay-sized lump in my breast; we scheduled an appointment to have an ultrasound done at the cancer center for the next week. I went in, they took a look, and they said it looked mostly like it wasn't an issue, but that part of it was looking a little off and they wanted to get a biopsy.

We did that on Wednesday this week and I got my results this afternoon. Everything is absolutely fine, and they're just going to want to take another look via ultrasound in 3-6 months (it's completely benign and there are no risk markers, so I assume it's just standard procedure to check in and see how my tit crasher is doing in there, and rent free no less.)

Anyway, it's just been a really emotional stressful couple of weeks and it has been wrecking my ability to manage my bipolar, so I've just been plugging away staying deep in my worklog for the month.

I guess the point of this post is just to say thank you for being a huge part of my life, and that I'm so glad said life isn't about to turn into a shitshow of dealing with something I probably just don't have the energy for.

You guys probably don't know this, but you're a wonderful support system when I'm going through rough patches, even without meaning to be. So, for the millionth time, don't get sick of it because I'm not gonna stop saying it, thank you.

Also my boob kinda hurts.

Comments

Feb. 10th, 2018 06:59 pm (UTC)
You have always been a total inspiration to me in life and in coding. To hear that you've been going through so much but everything is fine is like a total rollercoaster to me so I'm pretty damn sure it was a hundred times worse for you because you were LIVING it.

I am so glad to hear that everything is alright, though. You're strong and fun and you dedicate your time to things you love which is so admirable it's stupid on my part lol. I wish I had your talent and your drive and the fact that you take time out to teach people about things on this journal is one of the most awesome things I've ever seen someone do here.

You're a bad ass, Tess, never doubt that, and I am so glad to know you.
Feb. 11th, 2018 01:29 am (UTC)
Hi Tess, so glad to hear that you're alright. You're an amazing person. Mental Health is never easy to deal with but the fact that you have such a wonderful coping mechanism and know how to cope is great. I'll be in my corner over here cheering you on <33
Feb. 12th, 2018 04:25 pm (UTC)
♥♥♥ Thank you so much. JUST TRYIN' TO DO MY BEST, WHICH IS BETTER SOME DAYS THAN OTHERS LOL. The song of mental health issues, hahaha.
Feb. 14th, 2018 02:01 am (UTC)
I totally understand and get that! I've gone through a rough time myself recently (thought at least I figured out why which helped). As my friends tattoo says 'one day at a time'.

We just do our best and we (esp you) keep on being rocking.
Feb. 12th, 2018 04:22 pm (UTC)
😭 Shhh, thank you! (Like really, thank you.)

It's been pretty rough on my mental health, but I'm just glad everything's fine (and the things that aren't fine will be; I just need to keep getting shit done to help myself because I'm... really bad... at that, haha.)