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On a more personal note

Hey, guys! So, this is more of a personal kind of update, and I don't usually do those on here (or anywhere on IJ, really. I always mean to keep a personal journal and then wind up sticking to one on one Discord conversations, haha.)

I just wanted to take a minute and tell you all again—and I know I say this a lot, but bear with me—how very, very much I appreciate you all as a community. Your various forms of supporting my work through continued comments, messages, patronage, and tips have really made this that: My work.

What started as a hobby while dealing with postpartum almost nine years ago now has grown into a deep passion for me. Creating resources, teaching, and fielding questions has become a huge part of my life; something I can't imagine ever not doing.

I know, I know. What's so personal about all that? I say most of it all the time!

Well, a couple of weeks ago I went in for my yearly with my OB-GYN and he found a pretty okay-sized lump in my breast; we scheduled an appointment to have an ultrasound done at the cancer center for the next week. I went in, they took a look, and they said it looked mostly like it wasn't an issue, but that part of it was looking a little off and they wanted to get a biopsy.

We did that on Wednesday this week and I got my results this afternoon. Everything is absolutely fine, and they're just going to want to take another look via ultrasound in 3-6 months (it's completely benign and there are no risk markers, so I assume it's just standard procedure to check in and see how my tit crasher is doing in there, and rent free no less.)

Anyway, it's just been a really emotional stressful couple of weeks and it has been wrecking my ability to manage my bipolar, so I've just been plugging away staying deep in my worklog for the month.

I guess the point of this post is just to say thank you for being a huge part of my life, and that I'm so glad said life isn't about to turn into a shitshow of dealing with something I probably just don't have the energy for.

You guys probably don't know this, but you're a wonderful support system when I'm going through rough patches, even without meaning to be. So, for the millionth time, don't get sick of it because I'm not gonna stop saying it, thank you.

Also my boob kinda hurts.

Comments

Feb. 10th, 2018 08:47 am (UTC)
I wanted to know these things, and I'm incredibly glad to hear that your cancer scare was only a scare. We don't know each other beyond me commenting on your amazing posts (and I've been following your stuff for so long now, since back on LJ) but I'm always happy when people get to escape rough patches <3

Keep on keeping on!
Feb. 10th, 2018 04:57 pm (UTC)
Maybe I'll make a personal journal. I have a CDJ and a... new CDJ (lmfao) and I never use either, so I could probably just finally finish porting my CDJ info to the new one and use the original for a personal journal or something like that; I'll let you know if I do! I don't really mean to be distant; I just kind of tell myself no one wants to hear it (thanks bipolar.)

Thank you, though! I knew it was probably nothing, and I kept telling myself it was probably nothing, but y'know; there's still always that part of you that wants to freak out because what if it's not nothing, so I'm just really glad to be done now so I can stop wondering.

I had no idea you followed me back on LJ too, omg! I hate most of my first codes now, but I love them too, you know? 😂 I learned so much with those first codes and it got me onto the path that landed me here, and sometimes I think back to how I always had questions about every single piece and how to do things I don't even think about when I do them now, and that's why I help. We don't have any active documentation and layout-specific help communities for people making anymore, and if I hadn't had those back when I started I probably would have given up.